Bed... Still

Once again I have waited an extreme amount of time before posting. But what is my excuse? I've had no time? I think not. I have had all the time in the world. Right now I have to finish a term paper for History of Utah and I keep putting it off. I want to tell myself that I have just been too busy but really? busy doing what? cross stitching? sleeping? sitting in the shower for hours on end? making cards? wishing I could be out and about? Nothing pressing? I don't even make dinner anymore. No my pathetic excuses don't really justify my procrastination. Although I suppose I could use the excuse that working on this stupid, lengthy, stupid, uninteresting, stupid, arduous paper raises my blood pressure and thus us not good for me - i feel that that is a little low. Even for me. I decided that had I been attending class still I might feel a greater push or desire to finish but as I have not attended class for the last 5 weeks my motivation has plummeted. I was going to work on my paper from 11-2 since I have a doctors appointment at 2:20 - however now it is 1:51 and I have managed to avoid writing a single word. Yes I answered emails for my classes - yes I spent 45 minutes on facebook - yes I had lunch with my husband and yes i brushed my teeth but other than that I don't have much to say for myself. After my appointment...then I will work on it. I will get a ton done and relieve the nagging feeling of procrastination - after my appointment.

by the way my cross stitching blanket is almost done....

2:46 AM

Ever since this bed rest thing sleeping has been ... interesting. I have always have had trouble sleeping, but now that all that I do is sit around all day its been even worse. Between my back killing me and the list of things I should/want to be doing racing through my head. well it has been interesting. I have gotten a lot of things done. things that i feel good about. I have been blessed with the opportunity to develop new hobbies and I have enjoyed so much having the time to work on them. I love making handmade card and scrap-booking, I just started cross stitching and that has been SO fun! I think if everything goes well this week I might even be able to sit at my sewing machine :) extra happy about that!

Today was an awful day, lets be honest. I didn't get much done - just sat around and ate. I did get some papers graded. Papers I had hoped to have finished today. I only have 8 more but I wonder how long that will take. There are more due on tuesday so gotta have them done by then. I did just finished the second season of Grey's Anatomy like 2 seconds ago. well on to season 3. One thing that did make my day was a package we received. It never ceases to amazing me that a simple card or package can alter my day. Maybe thats why i so enjoy making cards and giving them out. I hope that maybe they can brighten someones day. Anyway - today i got a package from Heidi. It was awesome and perfect timing. I just finished my cross stitching project last night and in the package was 3 more projects!!!!!! and two of them were DISNEY!!!!! I am SO excited. I already started one. I just wanted to give a shout out to Heidi for being so thoughtful even though she is going through a tough time right now too. I am so thankful for something to keep me busy and happy. Sometimes I wish family lived closer....I miss my family - Hilton and Linn...